Losing patience... (long post)

Losing patience... (long post)
Posted by Evil Milkman on February 02, 2004 at 22:37:26: Previous Next

Lately I've been thinking that my long hair is getting tiresome. There's several reasons for this, and I'm on my 5th day of the '14 day rule'. It's very unruly, "wispy", frizzy, and somehow it just doesn't seem to fit my face. It's a struggle to feel comfortable with it all over my face and neck. I used to like this feeling, now it's just become more of a burden. Unless I straighten it, it's hard to make it look nice in the morning and for it not to be damp when I leave for class. It's a lot of work for something that doesn't look that good on me. The pictures can be deceiving... It's not like my hair HAS to look good all the time, I just really don't feel all that comfortable with it even when it DOES look good.

As you can tell, I'm in quite a delimma.

Today I wore it very straight, and didn't like it anymore. Even though it was very straight and controlled, I still felt really awkward... And not because of what people might say about it, but because I feel like I'm wearing a "hat" of hair all the time and really want to "take it off". It's really strange, and this is a relatively new feeling that only started about a month ago.

By the way, I got a sizable trim that evened up my hair all around. Though my trim was a very good one, I'm still not satisfied with my hair. I really just have this urge to be free of the feeling of long hair, and usually wear it in a ponytail and/or a bandanna whenever possible when I'm not at class or the gym. It feels great to have it off my neck and out of my face... I don't honestly know if I want long hair anymore. It's almost like since I reached my goal of long hair (what I wanted to achieve in the first place), it's not such a big deal anymore... I also don't think I really feel an "attachment" to my hair anymore. It never really was an "attachment", I guess, but more of a goal and something to try. It was something fun to try, and don't regret doing so. But, I'm also very curious about how I would look with a close buzzcut. Growing long hair has taught me patience, and if I DO get a buzzcut and don't like it, I can always tough it out until it's a couple inches again... I love to experiment, and there is much more room for experimentation that I'm interested in with shorter hair, in my opinion. Personally, I think I look best with short hair...

Anyway, if things don't change I think I'll be making some sort of arrangements to get it cut. I'll keep you guys updated on any decision making or lack thereof. Comments and questions are welcomed...



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